Late night thoughts
Sometimes I wonder if you ever think of me and miss me or do you crave me in the most simplest of forms.
It’s hard to tell cause you push me away then start saying & doing all the right things to keep me right where you want me but you’ll never fully commit. I don’t understand how one person can just totally fuck with someone’s emotions like you are with mine. What have I ever done to you to make you play with my feelings like this. All I’ve ever done was be there for you, care for you, and do whatever YOU wanted to do regardless of the fact if I wanted to or not. I did everything for you, not because I had to but because I wanted to. I’ve never, still til this day have ever asked anything from you except for your respect and attention towards me. The fact that you can’t even do either of those things STILL is astonishing and I don’t know why I’m holding on when I should be letting go. But the truth is, I’m holding on because I gave you a part of me that I may never get back but I’m okay with that. I just want you to know that. The sad thing is that I know what I need to do but won’t do it because I have so much invested in you and still think there’s a sliver of hope for us….or whatever. The reality is that you’re just going to keep on doing what you’ve always done, and when you’re done with me I’ll never hear from you again. This, this is what’s really gonna hurt, but I can’t complain because I put myself in this situation, knowing I shouldn’t have.